Thank You...

Now that I am back to blogging I want to start by saying my thanks to people who have encouraged me, directly or indirectly, for my debut into this sometimes innocuous, sometimes damaging, sometimes spurious and sometimes disarming world of words. Through the process of sharing and exchanging my ideas and thoughts I have grown to understand the mysteries of life. Yes, I have. I have also grown into a more confident person. This clamour for confidence is on-going and I am sure that when I finally arrive you will notice. Heh!

Thank you Susan...... for being the very first person to infect me with the blogging germ. Although the disease seems to have gone into remission, ever so often a ‘wanton desire’ appears only to be smothered by the mundane demands of everyday living!

Thank you ....... my favourite couple, Zaharah and Hulaimi, for inspiring me and giving me the much needed sustenance for a pursuit that eventually I could not pursue without neglecting some aspects of my daily living!

Thank you ........my accidental readers who had given me the impetus to keep going although I eventually ran out of any premeditated intent to keep you close to me! But then you gave me something more, much more!

Thank you ALL .......for crossing from the virtual domain into my real world. Thank you for the perfume-laced bear hugs and crisp yet warm handshakes. I have cherished every little bit of it; the first time meets wearing my heart on my sleeve, wondering if I should have indeed allowed this cross-over; the second time meets where I was sure the attraction was mutual! No, I am not joking!

And so on to many, many more meetings over the years which continue to reaffirm my belief that if you open your heart to friendship and goodwill, then those very tokens of a happy life will dare to enter your heart and life! Unbeckoned.

The foray into this medium of communication has given me the confidence to voice, what I would have thought, some very juvenile concepts of mine. I was able to hang these out to air with full view of those who passed by. As for those who wanted to say a thing or two, I had made a decision to accept their comments with the spirit they deserve. I found that it helps if you tell yourself that these comments are to be taken at face value and not analysed. (You do see the word ‘anal’ in analyse, eh? Hehehe)

And now I am back..... older, wiser and definitely busier. Hasta la vista! Baybeeee~

The Swagger Back Into The Blogworld?

Yesterday an old friend sent me a twitter request. I should thank him.

His request set in motion many small but important stuff that I had procrastinated! For starters, my blog has been rekindled.  I spent almost half a day battling with both the Google team and the Blogger team to retrieve my username and the password that goes with it.

Obviously I had opened several accounts and had allowed bits of me to scatter all over the Internet which took some serious sleuthing to bring it all together. *Phew*

So I guess that means back to business, eh? No more excuses for not posting at least once a week and more importantly no more excuses for not adding my comments to taint others' blogs!

I do hope therefore that 2009 means I can swagger back into the blog world and try and rub shoulders with some of the elites! Those prolific wordsmiths who I note have become precocious as well as sophisticated, moving on and moving up, byte-ing their thoughts with gusto.

Here is wishing my 4.5 readers a grand 2009 and may the Almighty shower his blessings on you and yours.

Goodbye Jaya

With all the frankness I am capable of, I can say that I am glad that her end has come. I have often in my lonely moments thought about her life and asked many questions (even to this day) to which I hardly ever find the answers that I seek...the justification to what she is/was going through.. and yet we have no choice but to accept what life throws at us.

I wondered if she asked the same questions. Can you imagine what must have gone through her tired mind for days and weeks and months and years.... do you think she prayed for a miracle like we did? This prayer for a miracle is within each one of us and I used up one when I prayed for my dad and lost him almost a decade ago. I prayed for one when I visited Jaya...I think this prayer for a miracle happens because of a certain desperation and love and I felt both of these for Jaya.....

She gave us a chance to re-unite and she must have rejoiced in our happiness when we re-discovered our friendship. I know this for certain because I know things always happen for a reason.. and she gave us a good reason...a starting point to rekindle the beautiful feelings of friendship and love and loyalty we hold for each other.

We all face death....when our loved ones depart...father, mother, aunt, grandma, grandpa, uncle....and while something in us dies when we say our final goodbyes we also know time is a great healer and the pain becomes distant and life goes on...

When our contemporaries die, we know that it can't be too long before it's our turn. I am not saying this to evoke a sense of morbidity, but really so that we cherish whatever we have left...of people, places and events. In the big picture, unless you are a Einstein or a Gandhi, we are not going to alter history or discover something that leaves a mark on mankind, but I know for a fact that we are important to those who are important to us. There is much truth and beauty in this.

We live our lives for these important people as much as we live for ourselves....our own pursuits (of which I have almost none!), our own interests (which remains an interest only if it coincides with our loved ones) and our own desires (which often we can't define!) and at the end of the day, if we don't get a nobel prize what the hell difference does it make...ya? because we have surrounded ourselves with people we love...

And friends.... life wouldn't be worth much if we didnt have them ... they multiply and magnify the joys in our lives. They are our mirrors and our shock absorbers, our spongebeags or truthmonsters .....

Dearest Jaya, may your eternal journey start with offerings of our love, our sincere wishes for everlasting happiness and with a promise that we meet somewhere sometime..thank you for touching our lives...