Goodbye Jaya

With all the frankness I am capable of, I can say that I am glad that her end has come. I have often in my lonely moments thought about her life and asked many questions (even to this day) to which I hardly ever find the answers that I seek...the justification to what she is/was going through.. and yet we have no choice but to accept what life throws at us.

I wondered if she asked the same questions. Can you imagine what must have gone through her tired mind for days and weeks and months and years.... do you think she prayed for a miracle like we did? This prayer for a miracle is within each one of us and I used up one when I prayed for my dad and lost him almost a decade ago. I prayed for one when I visited Jaya...I think this prayer for a miracle happens because of a certain desperation and love and I felt both of these for Jaya.....

She gave us a chance to re-unite and she must have rejoiced in our happiness when we re-discovered our friendship. I know this for certain because I know things always happen for a reason.. and she gave us a good reason...a starting point to rekindle the beautiful feelings of friendship and love and loyalty we hold for each other.

We all face death....when our loved ones depart...father, mother, aunt, grandma, grandpa, uncle....and while something in us dies when we say our final goodbyes we also know time is a great healer and the pain becomes distant and life goes on...

When our contemporaries die, we know that it can't be too long before it's our turn. I am not saying this to evoke a sense of morbidity, but really so that we cherish whatever we have left...of people, places and events. In the big picture, unless you are a Einstein or a Gandhi, we are not going to alter history or discover something that leaves a mark on mankind, but I know for a fact that we are important to those who are important to us. There is much truth and beauty in this.

We live our lives for these important people as much as we live for ourselves....our own pursuits (of which I have almost none!), our own interests (which remains an interest only if it coincides with our loved ones) and our own desires (which often we can't define!) and at the end of the day, if we don't get a nobel prize what the hell difference does it make...ya? because we have surrounded ourselves with people we love...

And friends.... life wouldn't be worth much if we didnt have them ... they multiply and magnify the joys in our lives. They are our mirrors and our shock absorbers, our spongebeags or truthmonsters .....

Dearest Jaya, may your eternal journey start with offerings of our love, our sincere wishes for everlasting happiness and with a promise that we meet somewhere sometime..thank you for touching our lives...